Oh yeah, I'm back!! I miss blogging... I miss ranting.. I miss everything in this space... I know I have a lot of stories to publish prior to this, but I'll try to make it up. HAHAHA.
The past 2 months, I must say is something unexpected. It was short but I felt like it happened for a long time now. Its really awkward that after the previous post talking about new work, I am now ending my journey to that new work. HAHAHA. So fast?? HAHAHA. But please dont get me wrong, its not about being stubborn but I have my reasons. Work for me, is not just about money anyway, I might be lucky as my family can support everything financially right now even though I don't have work but I'm trying to be independent again. Something that I can't do here, as I left half of my heart somewhere else. =)
But the best thing that happened to me within that 2 months is them....
I always believe that when you meet someone new along the way, they will definitely take a part in your life, it doesnt matter if its for a short time or long time but of course, they are life impacting, they will bring good or bad changes, and its up to you on how you will react to it.
Why did I apply for the job? To support myself financially of course. Its really tough to look for a job in the industry I want to pursue and I am getting to the point that I think I am useless since I can't find a job. So why not call center? To tell you honestly, I dont like taking phone calls. But I always have a mindset that everything can be learned. Just like I hate things about nursing, I found myself practicing being a first aider way back before. HAHAHA. I love doing things that I dont want to do. Call me crazy, i dont mind. HAHAHA.
Everything is my first, first interview in a call center, first job locally, etc. Lucky, I got hired. And finally i can be able to receive salary again. That feeling! HAHAHA. I'm not really thinking about the people whom I will be working with, I'm all about supporting myself financially. Kinda selfish but its human nature. First day of training, I got plenty of people to be friends in the group... and I'm not expecting that much. First impression, I really dont look like friendly at all. I'm quite and I just observe things. I always been attached with my previous group that I had in SG. And I thought I would never had a group like that in the future. =) but definitely I was wrong.
Day goes by, people learn to stand up on their seats to meet other people across that big big room, from one corner to another corner, making fun to each other, playing TEKKEN together, going on lunch together, helping each other to catch up with the lessons, and putting the faith to each and everyone that no one will be left behind. We are not perfect, miscommunication and misunderstanding arise but that what makes friendship more stronger. There are times that I was thinking like, it looks like this people dont have husbands or wives or children... when we are together its like we have our own world and I super love it! HAHAHA.
I came to the point of my life, I asked myself, what do i really want? and I found out that I'm missing something. I can't feel the satisfaction I want for myself. I want to pursue something else, and its not what I have right now. It would be easy for me not to come to work and just go on AWOL. but what stopped me from doing that is THEM. I didn't realize until I found myself thinking about resigning. What will happen if I resign? What will happen to the stats of the group? What if my decision will trigger them to resign also? Am I ready enough to leave them? Am I becoming selfish again? I can't afford to go to work and do my job, when my heart is not in it. I lost my passion somewhere and i dont know how it happened. I got too emotional, thinking the future of the group as we almost came down to the final week being together. I end up reasoning that I am still here because of the group which is not should be the case. Setting my priorities and I have to make decision for myself because its my life. Then I finally decided, I finally made up my mind, I need to pursue what I really want no matter what it takes. I took the consequences of my actions. I try to keep my decision as a secret just to make sure that the group will not be demoralized as I am aware that some of us are on the bridge of jumping out. But worst case scenario happened, and I cant control it, I might be the firestarter but I am not the only factor. I have my reason, they have their reason and I can't ask them to stay because I myself can't no longer stay anymore. We can still have our friendship even though we're working separately, there's no distance in friendship especially when its real. You just have to take care of it. And let's face it, we can't be together forever. I know, one day, i will regret my decision but that's life, its about how much willing you are in taking risk. Like the risk of giving out trust to someone you barely even know, it may break you or make you.
They always have a place in my heart. YAY! HAHAHA. Thanks to them, and to the changes they made in my life. I will never forget the camaraderie of this group in just a short time. God knows how much effort and love I can give to this group. =)
I decided to make some small dedications for everyone in the group. Just to make it more madrama. HAHAHA.
To pau-pau, everyone's soulmate? charot! thank you bading for everything, for being a real friend. for all the advices and criticism. I wish after six months you will be promoted as SME or Supervisor or OM na. I always believe that you can do it. BBM mo lang ako. If I got to SG again, dont forget to visit me.
To glenn, you are one of the first person i've met from this wave, naalala ko pa, i was asking myself that time if your gay or what? HAHAHA. I even remember when you ask me about a good looking guy, if he's gay or what. HAHAHA. and I will never forget your school songs. Gaaaddd! HAHAHA.
To sj, remember versant? HAHAHA. I'm glad you've able to make it on the 2nd time! HAHAHA. Favorite ka ng lahat, alam mo yan te, you have the attention of each of us. Para kang si ethel, ang taas ng energy kapag inaantok! HAHAHAHA.
To joko, my annoying seatmate. ako na irate agent! HAHAHA. Mammiss mo din ako, alam ko yun! HAHAHA. Thanks for helping me to get to the CR when I was drunk! HAHAHA.
To jona, the queen of treats. the bombshell! charot! ikaw na lahat. I'm so happy for you that your not alam mo na te! And I know your happy too. HAHAHA. You and pau need to be together. HAHAHA,
To dad, Mr Aga Muhlach, iwasan ang panglima, please lang... HAHAHA.
To ate nelson, thanks for understanding and listening to my concerns when I was drunk. thanks for keeping a secret. i do really appreciate people who listen and understand my blunts esp when I'm drunk. HAHAHA.
To christian and eric, I will miss playing table tennis with you guys.
To sha, ikaw na tekken queen! Tekken live tayo minsan. HAHAHA.
To louie, friend, I always admire your generosity lalo na pag dating kay SJ. keep it up dude. HAHAHA.
To dharlene, you said you love my voice, i also love your voice. Someday we'll know.... HAHAHA, Love it! HAHAHA.
To may, ang taong nagpaiyak saken. etchusera ka! HAHAHA. thanks for making my resignation more easier, at least you tell it to Lana i have the chance to open it up. HAHAHA. I only wish the best things for you, brat. HAHAHA. and thanks for considering me as a good friend. I appreciate it, except for having the same food items during lunch. ako nauna dun e. HAHAHA. next time, we will have durian exchange naman. deal! HAHAHA.
and to all that I forgot to mention, ella, jelly, tabs, joan, mac, jd, april, lester, rafa... i wish all the best for you guys! Nothing but the best... Thanks for the friendship.
=) Until we meet again!
