Its been a month... as the day passes by, the more we keep on thinking about it!
Isn't that it should be the other way around?
I can describe our feelings as helpless. We can do nothing about it for now but to sigh, reminisce and wait.
Anyway, its not really easy to just move on, especially when all you can think are the good memories, good days and good people that you had in becoming independent for the first time in your life.
Sometimes, when those memories and realization pass through my mind, i chose to be quiet and not to blunt anything more about it. Like others who don't know anything about it will look at it as exaggerated and maybe offending. That's human nature.
But when you know that its not just you, feeling the same way, you cannot control but to share it.
Our situation is way way more different than before, we used to stay in one place, we can easily see each other and we can go somewhere together but now, we are living in different places that are far to each other and traveling that much would be very inconvenient. That was the hardest thing we have I guess, until now. The best cure for this is to hang out with old friends. YEAP!
Everyday, when you start to open the net, the first thing you will normally do is to open your facebook account. Just by seeing their statuses and their name in the chatbox makes you ask yourself... "How are they?!" "Do they miss me?" and start to think about them... the times with them.
You want to ask them but there is always something that stops you from doing it. Your controlling your emotions and your avoiding yourself to lure more in sadness.
Worst is when you start to view the pictures from the past. Smiles and laughter that are signs on how happy you are with everyone at that moment. PRICELESS! I remember the time when I'm deciding whether to buy my camera or not, I read this statement, "It doesnt matter whether you buy now or later, but the thing is you cannot return back to those happy moments passing by just to capture it." makes sense!
I try not to think about everything and everyone that have a connection with it, really, I do. But with watching a movie or just walking in the streets... there will be something that always remind you of it. SICK! you dont know whether its playing on you or its a sign for something.
I dont want to forget about it, but i dont want to think about it every time. A month is not enough to move on, yet I think we need to do something to keep ourselves busy. I still remember the feeling when I got there for the first time, yeah.. I got to miss my home.. but compared to this one its worst. Maybe because we are thinking that there is a big possibility that we will not be able to live there again.
And yeah, one cure we are thinking is to go there for a visit. Though we still open to the possibility of working there again anytime, but for me, I think not for the next 6 to 12 months coz i really dont want to expect that much. If I would go for a visit, I will make sure that no one will know except for my family and friends who will come to join me. One day, others will know we are already there. HAHAHA. SURPRISE! LOL. After 6 months maybe.
HAH! I dont know when will be the last time that I will blunt out about my whole experience in SG. maybe if i already got a job that will pump me to death and just sleep afterwards so i can stop thinking about it. HAHAHA.
